PSAT

I'm taking a the PSAT on Saturday. I'm hoping to get a 180. I got a 164 last time, so it's definitely within the realm of possibility. If I can get a 180 I could join Mensa. I don't really want to be a part of the organization, but being part of somthing that most people are not "smart" enough to get into is appealing. I suppose it's superficial to want to be able to do somthing just for the perception in carries with it, but it would be a way of validating my worth to myself. I want proof that I am smart. Somtimes I feel I just pretend to be.